The balance between internal chaos and external calm- A love story

I started tasting different feelings, smiling like crazy, blushing in front of the mirror, and sobbing for no particular reason. The girl who was always in a rush of perfection fell completely for imperfection. Uff! Those mixed feelings! Am I in love? Can I ever love someone? Ohh no! He is not even fulfilling my criteria of a perfect partner.

Many times I consoled myself for “NO” to him but I was automatically pushed towards him and then there I was helpless. OMG! I have changed. My priorities shifted from sleep to text, I was happy having his favorite flavor of ice-cream and had SMS pack for the first time in life. He was assumed to love, he was assumed to be polite, he was assumed to be the best and yes he was. Much more caring that anyone could ever think. For me, it was the last thing I wanted. Well, fell for his care ज़िन्दगी सच में बदल रही थी

Gradually I started swimming in the river of love leaving everyone behind. I went so ahead that I couldn’t realize how deep it was. No one was there to hold me and take back. I was dying and all alone. Once it was taking up my breath. I closed my eyes to give up. और ज़िन्दगी फिर से बदल गयी…

I remain unconscious for long. When I open my eyes, I found myself alone, lying on the broken bed of reality. I smiled and walked towards shores again, ज़िन्दगी को एक और बार बदलने

Year’s passed, everything changed. I learned to live without him I learned to smile again. Still, something is missing. Do I miss you? Really, No, I just miss our memories.

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